Jun. 16th, 2008
07:55 pm - Done.
What, I'm not allowed to vent like everyone else?
Shakes head in disbelief.
It is so easy to put things in black and white where they won't hurt anyone.
Right? Where you don't have to deal with the looks and all those pesky emotions.
Dehumanization of relationships is insidious and I refuse to be part of it anymore.
I am sorry if you have enjoyed reading my journal but I am so done. The more I write, the more drama ensues. I can't take it anymore. It is ridiculous. If you have a problem with me or anything about me, including the parties I throw, you will have to tell me to my face. My apologies in advance.
Jun. 10th, 2008
So they tell me I can go online while I am on lunch. Whoo!
So. I am well. Tired and tummy achy from the tiredness but only...5...hours to go. Oh that is depressing. Wes and I have been working on a spreadsheet right under our boss's nose and it is a little stressful, to me. Tiniestly.
This morning we went to House of Pies for breakfast and aside from the techno raver shits at the next table, it was nice. On the way to work I bought one bottle of excedrin with caffiene and one bottle of advil PM. Haha take that crappy sleeplessness. And then I changed pants while driving down 610. Which I've never done before.
Allright, I go now.
Jun. 9th, 2008
Considering that it took me like a hour to tell Jed about the trials and tribulations of my first day working in a chemical plant, I don't think I can get it all down here tonight. I have to go to bed in about half an hour, and I still have to get my shit together for the morning.
Here is the Sportscenter version.
-Trying to convince myself it is not early.
-Two hours trying to get a badge and Nomex, interrupted by a panic attack and a split second of "what the hell am I doing here." Help from several very nice older men.
-A bit of training with someone who is looking to be a great boss.
-A new office space in a container hive. Srsly, I work in a container. An air tight one. :-)
-More training on a few database systems that look pretty fun (yes I like databases; I am weird ok?) Tag team data entry with Wes.
-Walking about in a maze of identical trailers trying to find a coke machine. Found one, though not the one I was directed to, by asking people along the way. Then the fun began when I tried to get back to my container.
-A feeling of gladness that Wes already knows I am smart so that when I am learning he knows I am not as dumb as I act :-)
-4 10's for a few weeks at least. WHOO!!
Sorry kids, but I have to go spend 22 minutes with my husband, pack my lunch for tomorrow, and sleeeeeep.
Jun. 5th, 2008
11:16 pm - Oh yeah, I remember...
Silly of me to forget.
I love the promise of night, the dark hours that stretch ahead, seeming endless. My best conversations, my best writing, my best work has all been born from the quiet tranquility of the night, a time when the pressures of the day ease and the bustling around us pauses.
All of the magical nights I have enjoyed...walks on the beach...the dark womb of night, I suppose, makes people feel secure enough to let their walls down and reveal feelings and thoughts that are normally hidden behind pride and vulnerability.
I pot and water my plants at night. I write at night. I Practice under the shroud of night. I clean, organize, and plan with much fervor in the night.
Jun. 3rd, 2008
11:00 pm - Adventure One.
We can make it home, with one headlight....
or none. :shrug:
10 pm this evening found me calmly sitting cross legged on a deserted Academy parking lot at the dubious corner or Westheimer and Hillcroft, eating a late dinner of Mickey D's with a helmet in my lap in case of attack, while Jed tried to figure out what the hell was (is) wrong with his headlights.
As the hobos strolled across the lot, I offered Jed a fry and loved all of it.
Jun. 2nd, 2008
May. 31st, 2008
07:16 pm - Wired!!
yesterday was interesting. I had probably six cups of stiff coffee at work. After work I came home, changed, and we rode straight out to meet Raven (Jebus's ex) at Willowbrook for some yuuuummy mexican food. I haven't ever seen her Harley but it is SWEET. She was happy to see us and I was happy to catch up with her a bit. She has become a bit...er...less feminine...since she broke up with Jebus. And she was fairly masculine before!!!
We rode out to Tomball, down 2920 for a bit, and ended up at a Denny's in the middle of nowhere, when Raven discovered that she needed to be at work early this morning and had to take off to go to bed. So we finished our banana splits and coffee and rode to my sister's apartment in Cypress. I got to see my niece and nephew for like two seconds--they were almost asleep when I got there. Sara and Bobby were about to leave to meet some friends at where else but House of Pies, and they invited us to join. So off we went for some pie and MORE COFFEE. I actually had a really good time with them. I met people that Sara talks about all the time. I did the sarcastic thing that I tend to do when I am with a group that I don't know, and they seemed to enjoy my comments.
When we got home at 2:30 in the morning, and made it to bed at 3, I could literally feel the sugar and caffeine surging through my body. It was crazy! I ate waaaaay too much yesterday. And obviously had too much coffee. Today I have been drinking cranberry juice instead. We tried to find some that has less sugar, and succeeded-- kind of.
So this morning at 6 am I wake up to the lovely sounds of a puking dog. Yay. I have no idea what was wrong with him. But otherwise it has been a good day. A day for walking slowly, chillin out. We had a good time grocery shopping, picked up some fabric and tools, and spent a few hours recovering our dining room chairs. They sit in the other room, clad in burgundy courderoy with red velvet flowers, to match all the reds we have downstairs. Now we are baking pizza and Jed is tearing through a book that Thalen loaned us. :-D Maybe tonight we will take Rocky for a good walk, or ride a bit, or else Jed can try out some of that stuff in the book on me :-)
May. 30th, 2008
10:11 am - This is why
This is why I quit responding to requests for petitions that groups like Sierra Club send to me all the time. Follows is the response from the last one. I have emphasized with italics. It is great that she voted for whatever watered-down bill the president signed. But is this lady for real, seriously, who still refuses to believe that all of the crap we spew into the air is not having any consequence on the climate?
When I was at Corrpro my boss was invited to attend an EPA conference. He came back making fun of everyone there, who were all trying to "reinvent the wheel" as he put it. Basically, the environmentalists don't realize that the engineers working in the industry already have the tools that are needed. The engineers think the environmentalists are daft and useless and so won't take the time to work with them. Because really, unless you design wind turbines, there is a lot more money in oil these days than in saving the environment.
I throw up my hands.
May. 29th, 2008
May. 28th, 2008
What a delightful evening.
After work I (eventually) made it to Kat and Joe's for yummy tacos, vodka, Dane Cook, score of TV, loss of new shoes, and acute allergy attack. I never knew my eyes could swell like this. I was embarrassed. And jealous of Misti's hurr!
Jed and I had a great talk about plans. I had a case of "what the hell is wrong with me that I can't be happy with the same life everyone else has?" And as usual he distilled the issue and made it very simple. You're just not like everyone else, he told me. I love him and I am so excited about our year.
Now we are home and the rain is pattering on the window and I am in my jammies and content.
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